Friday, 7 March 2025

South African Social Security Agency (SASSA) and disability grants for persons Like Anke and Markus.

I (like many other parents of adult disabled children) am facing a very difficult situation, I feel frustrated and overwhelmed in the light of having to change over to a basic bank account for each of my disabled children, or switching to new SASSA disability grant cards before the 20th of March 2025 (both options difficult as my children are profoundly disabled and can therefore not go and open a bank account or que somewhere to sign up for a new SASSA card). 

The challenges parents experience in opening bank accounts for their disabled children (the preferred safe option as opposed to finding a safe ATM every month to withdraw grants), highlight a significant gap in the banking system, as my children cannot go into a bank to open their own bank accounts.

Here's a breakdown of the challenges.  

Why the Bank Account Obstacle Exists:

Should banks not make an exception in situations like this, maybe to get past financial conventional regulations? I know banks are heavily regulated to prevent fraud and money laundering, and that these regulations require in-person verification of the account holder's identity as a standard practice globally. Why can’t a bank do a home visit to verify that the disabled person exists and verify their bona fides and open a bank account for them?

I do not have the financial means to pay for legal services to possibly obtain capacity and power of attorney or a court order:

Banks need to establish that the person opening the account has the legal capacity to do so. In cases where an individual is profoundly disabled, this becomes complex and banks might require a legally recognized power of attorney or court order to authorize a parent or caregiver to act on behalf of the bedridden disabled person.

Protection of Vulnerable Individuals:

I appreciate that there are regulations designed and in place to protect vulnerable individuals from exploitation. But the system fails my children (and me), because of a lack of accessibility. The current system does not adequately address the needs of individuals with severe disabilities who cannot physically open their own bank accounts. 

Insufficient Alternatives:

SASSA representatives suggesting bank accounts is helpful, but the system doesn't provide viable alternatives when physical presence is impossible.

Burden on Caregivers:

Caregivers like me and many other parents, especially parents from disadvantaged communities, already face immense burdens. The added stress of navigating complex bureaucratic processes is unacceptable.

Lack of Understanding of Profound Disabilities:

Many people do not understand the complexities of caring for profoundly disabled bedridden individuals.

Possible Solutions (that will cost money):

Exploring legal options in obtaining the services of an attorney who specialise in disability law.

Key Point:

We as elderly parents of severely disabled adult children facing similar challenges in caring for our children need help to continue advocating for our rights to obtain systemic changes that address our needs in easing the burden of caring for our children with severe disabilities.

Thank you

Pieter Labuschagne labusch@loquat.co.za

 

PERSONS WITH DISABILITIES AND HUMAN RIGHTS.

South African Human Rights Commission

The South African Constitution

South Africa is party to international laws and agreements such as the United

Nations Convention on the Rights of Persons with Disabilities (CRPD) of 2006,

which South Africa ratified in 2007 which means that the country accepts all the

legal obligations that are imposed by this instrument. The CRPD seeks to promote,

protect and ensure the full and equal enjoyment of all human rights by persons

with disabilities.

The CRPD defines persons with disabilities to include those who have long term

physical, mental, intellectual or sensory impairments, which in interaction with

various barriers may hinder their full and effective participation in society on an

equal basis. This is a clear recognition that persons with disabilities are equal and

valuable members of society and should be recognised in all aspects of life.

 

 

A Biblical Perspective on Disability is Rooted in Several Key Principles

The Image of God (Imago Dei):

The Bible teaches that all humans, regardless of ability, are created in God's image (Genesis 1:27). This means that every person possesses inherent dignity, worth, and value. Profound disability does not diminish this divine image.

God's Sovereignty and Purpose:

Christians believe that God has a purpose for every life. While the reasons for disability may not always be clear, the Bible teaches that God can use all circumstances for His glory (John 9:3).

Compassion and Care:

Jesus Christ demonstrated immense compassion for those who were suffering or marginalized. Christians are called to follow His example by showing love, care, and support to individuals with profound disabilities and their families. The Bible emphasises the importance of caring for "the least of these" (Matthew 25:40), which includes those who are vulnerable and in need.

The Body of Christ:

The Christian church is described as the body of Christ (1 Corinthians 12). This metaphor highlights the interdependence of all believers. People with disabilities and their parents are valued members of the body, and their presence enriches the community.

Not a Result of Sin:

Jesus directly addressed the misconception that disability is a result of personal or parental sin (John 9:1-3). This clarifies that disability is not necessarily a punishment from God.

Hope and Eternal Perspective:

Christian faith offers hope for a future where suffering and disability will be no more (Revelation 21:4). This eternal perspective provides comfort and strength in the face of difficult circumstances.

Key takeaways from a Biblical perspective:

Individuals with profound disabilities are not defined by their limitations but by their inherent value as God's creation. The Christian community has a responsibility to provide practical and spiritual support to persons affected by disability, the disabled person as well as the parents. Disability can be an opportunity for God's love and grace to be displayed.

It's important to note that within Christianity, there are diverse ways of applying these principles. However, the core values of dignity, compassion, and hope remain central.

 

The role of the Church in disability

From a Biblical Christian perspective, the church plays a vital role in supporting families caring for a child with profound disabilities. Here's a breakdown of that role:

Core Biblical Principles.

The Body of Christ:

1 Corinthians 12 emphasizes that the church is a body with diverse members, each essential. This means families with profoundly disabled children are integral parts of the church, and the church is incomplete without them. The church is called to function as a supportive body, with each member caring for the others. 

Love and Compassion:

Jesus's example of compassion for the vulnerable (Matthew 25:31-46) calls the church to actively demonstrate love and care for families facing the unique challenges of profound disability. Galatians 6:2 instructs believers to "carry each other's burdens," which is especially relevant for these families.

Serving "the Least of These":

Matthew 25:40 reminds Christians that serving those in need is equivalent to serving Christ himself. This includes providing practical and emotional support to families caring for profoundly disabled children.

Practical Roles of the Church:

Providing practical support like respite care. Offering temporary relief to parents as caregivers like occasional meal preparation and delivery. Assistance with transportation as and if needed. Help with household chores. Financial assistance and/or resource guidance. Offering emotional and spiritual support, as needed and requested from time to time. 

Providing a supportive community where families feel accepted and understood. Offering prayer and spiritual guidance. Creating support groups for parents and siblings.

Providing counselling and emotional support. Promoting inclusion and belonging for parents, make special efforts in reaching out to parents of disabled children. Checking in with parents from time to time in person or via a phone call. 

Educating the congregation about disability awareness and what members can do to support parents. Encouraging meaningful participation in church activities. Helping parents to feel a sense of belonging. Helping church members understand the theological truths of the Imago Dei, and that all life is valuable. Helping church members understand that disability is not the result of sin.

Advocacy:

Being a voice for families and individuals with disabilities in the community. Promoting accessibility and inclusion in society.

In essence, the church is called to be a loving, supportive, and inclusive community that walks alongside families caring for profoundly disabled children, providing ongoing practical and spiritual support.

Thursday, 20 February 2025

You imagine you have 2 adult children...

People sometimes tell me that they cannot imagine what it is like caring for two adult children with profound disabilities at home. I suggest they close their eyes for a moment and imagine they have two adult disabled children behind a door leading from their lounge. 

It is maybe difficult to imagine, but trying can help someone understand in a small way that it is a significant undertaking that requires immense dedication, patience, and resources.

Here's a breakdown of what it might entail:

Constant Supervision: both children need round-the-clock supervision due to their disabilities. Preventing accidents, assisting with mobility, always ensuring their safety. Bathing, dressing, and toileting as they cannot do it for themselves.

Administering medications, feeding them, bowel movement management, ordering nappies and medication. Physio when they become chesty, patting on back to get phlegm out.

Finding effective ways to communicate and understand their needs and emotions is a constant challenge as they cannot tell where they hurt, they cannot speak. You must learn to read their nonverbal communication in order to manage their needs as best you can.

As they grow older, you grow older and less strong and therefore the priority in caring becomes their comfort, as best as possible, to their individual interests, needs and abilities to help improve their quality of life.

Prepare for social isolation as a family as it is difficult for relatives and even long-term friends to deal with your reality.

Financial Strain will creep up on you. You have to learn to manage your financial resources with utmost care. No holidays, frugal is unfortunately your mantra when it comes to your own needs. Costs associated with specialised care is substantial.

Respite Care is something to plan for if possible. In our case we do take breaks from time to time alone as and when we can. Not too often though as it cost money.

We do our best in planning for the longer-term care of Anke and Markus. It unfortunately never feels that we are doing enough. Your caring takes up a lot of your waking day. 

Future Planning: Considering long-term care options and making legal and financial arrangements for their future well-being is essential.

Caring for two profoundly disabled children can be emotionally and physically draining. You experience ongoing grief over the loss of the life your children will never have, the life you envisioned for your children is long gone.

The ideal is to build a strong support network, seeking counselling, and practicing self-care but in reality, stays something to hope for as it stays a lonely journey.

The best one can do is to make the best of the journey, by the grace of God. . 

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Sunday, 17 November 2024

... telling my story


 

The Impact of Childhood Disability: The Parent’s Struggle

Have you ever wondered what it’s like for parents raising children with disabilities? If so, you need to read “The Impact of Childhood Disability: The Parent’s Struggle,” by Ken Moses, Ph.D. 

I was taught that the way to deal with adversity or pain was to “tough it out.” If you could avoid showing the pain, then you had “beaten the rap,” and dealt with the problem competently.  I am a psychologist who works with people who are grieving over profound losses.  Few would argue that facing the devastating and continuing loss of having a disabled child is among the most painful experiences that a person can confront.  After working with parents of the disabled for many years, I have come to believe that I was given bad advice.  I have come to believe that pain is the solution, not the problem. 

Parents, all parents, attach to their children through dreams, fantasies, illusions, and projections into the future.  Children are our second chance, our ultimate “life products,” the reflection and extension of our very being.  To know that a human life exists that grows from our genes, our bodies, that is a result of our existence, brings a measure of spirituality into the most hardened individual. Something about our basic sense of being is stirred when we witness the miracle of the continuity of life.  What happens when this core experience is marred irreversibly by disability?  How does a parent survive the devastation of a handicap in their child that shatters their heartfelt dream?  How do they go on?  How can they help their child, themselves? 

Before I started working in this field, I noted that people who faced adversity basically became better or worse; none stayed the same.  What made the difference?  Some parents seem to pull their lives together around their children with special needs.  These people helped me enormously as I started to answer some of the important questions that relate to coping with childhood impairment. 

I first encountered parents of children with disabilities in the early 1970’s.  Twelve mothers were gathered to work on relevant issues. I was the group’s facilitator. I began the group using traditional group psychotherapy methods, an approach designed to intervene on psychopathology.   That approach did not work for simple reason: those mothers were not suffering from pathologies they were reeling from the impact of having disabled children. Gradually, I let go of the old ways of doing things and permitted myself to listen and learn from this courageous group of parents. Slowly, a pattern emerged that surprised me.  It became evident that these people were manifesting a grieving process. This left me confused.  It was clear that they were alternately anxious, angry, denying, guilty, depressed, or fearful, but they were not internally “disturbed” people.  Conversations focused on experiencing regrets, being overwhelmed, and other feelings common to people who are bereaved.  My puzzlement: “Who died?” At that time, my understanding of grief was simple, concrete, and exclusively tied to death. 

What followed was a remarkable process.  The group members struggled with a number of concepts that led us to some powerful contemplations about parental grief.  Is it the loss of a “normal” child?  Is it the disruption of one’s “normal” lifestyle?  Is it the sense of shame or humiliation that is experienced with family, friends, or other peers?  Is it the profound disappointment that some experienced with the ineffective responses of their ostensible support group?  We might have shared such thoughts endlessly, until I formulated a key question that helped to bring these diffused feelings and thoughts into focus.  It came out innocently enough: “Think back to when you were anticipating the birth of your child.  Who (or what) was this child to have been for you?” What followed was a remarkable outpouring of poignant, anguished human sharing that, to this day, serves as the foundation for understanding and working with parents of disabled children.

 

Parents attach to children through core-level dreams, fantasies, illusions and projections into the future.  Disability dashes these cherished dreams.  The impairment, not the child, irreversibly derail a parent’s fundamental, heart-felt yearning.  Disability shatters the dreams, fantasies, illusions, and projections into the future that parents generate as part of their struggle to accomplish basic life missions.  Parents of disabled children grieve for the loss of dreams that are key to the meaning of their existence, to their sense of being.  Recovering from such a loss depends on one’s ability to separate from the lost dream, and to generate new, more attainable, dreams. 

As disability bluntly shatters the dreams, parents face a complicated, draining, challenging, frightening, and consuming task.  They must raise the child they have, while letting go of the child they dreamed of.   They must go on with their lives, cope with their child as he or she is now, let go of the lost dreams, and generate new dreams.  To do all this, the parent must experience the process of grieving. 

Grieving is an unlearned, spontaneous, and self-sufficient process.  It consists of states of feeling that provide the opportunity for self-examination, leading to both internal and external change.  The grieving states that facilitate separation from a lost dream are as follows: denial, anxiety, fear, guilt, depression, and anger.  The word “states” is used, instead of “stages,” to emphasize grieving is not a step-by-step process that evolves through discrete stages.  This depiction of what a parent goes through is a presentation of theory, not irrefutable fact.  It is meant to help people find their own ways of dealing with the unspeakable.  I look at it as a map, not a recipe.  A recipe tells people what to do if they desire a particular result. A map, on the other hand, is one person’s partial impression of reality that can be used by another to help them get to where they wish to go. 

When the theories of grieving are used as a recipe to produce acceptance, two false premises are inflicted on parents.  The premise that grieving should move through a specific order is flatly inaccurate.  A consistent pattern is not evident in people dealing with loss! Worse, when people believe that they supposed to grieve in a certain way, they often end up thinking they are doing it wrong.  Secondly, the concept of acceptance is totally unfounded.  In almost twenty years of working with bereaved people, as well as dealing with my own losses, I have never seen anyone achieve acceptance of loss, only acknowledgement.  Belief in the concept of acceptance leads parents into feeling like failure for not being able to attain it.  Any use of grieving theory as a recipe is strongly discouraged. 

Though the feeling states of grieving do not adhere to any strict order, there is a loose pattern that can be detected.  Denial is always first, but may re-emerge again and again, as often as the parent needs to experience it.  Anxiety generally follows denial, but it can follow other states as well. It is not uncommon for two or more feeling states to be experienced at the same time.  Different families are more or less comfortable with showing certain feelings while discouraging others.  In short, each person who goes through the grieving process experiences each of the feeling states but does so in their own unique manner and order. 

It is clear that this spontaneous, unlearned grieving process is central to the wellbeing of the child and parent alike.  It is the only way that one can separate from a lost, cherished dream.  Many people do not make it.  They have their own dreams shattered by their child’s disability and collapse emotionally under the assault.  Resisting the grieving process, they hold feelings in, blame self or others, become embittered, dependent, or even bizarre in their interactions.  They can range from the selfless crusader to the deserter, from the alcoholic to the workaholic, from the outrageously high-strung to the person who barely moves or talks. However they manifest their stuckness, these are the people who have become worse, not better, in response to loss.  These are the people who could not or would not experience the feelings of grieving.  Many of them resisted the process because of their subculture (their family, neighbours, church, schools, or friends) sent out a consistent message: the feelings of grieving are not acceptable!  Others foundered because they were stuck emotionally before they had their disabled child.  Regardless of background, people become worse if they resist experiencing and sharing the spontaneous feelings of grieving.  Each feeling state, no matter how negative, serves a specific and helpful function.  To separate from a lost dream, one must experience and share denial, anxiety, fear, guilt, depression and anger in whatever order or manner the feelings surface.

The Feeling States of Grieving:

Denial 

People who deny are considered stupid, obstructionist, dull or deliberately irritating by many who have to deal with them.  None of that is true.  Parents of disabled children manifest denial as a normal course of trying to deal competently with loss. It is impossible to live life fully while maintaining an awareness of the awful things that can happen to other people.  Most people routinely shield themselves with such thoughts as: “The terrible things that happen to other people can’t happen to me, because…” This system works fine as long as nothing terrible happens, but when it does, no one is prepared to deal with it.  This is where denial in the service of grieving comes in.  Denial buys the time needed to blunt the initial impact of the shattered dream, to discover the inner strengths needed to confront what has really happened, and to find the people and resources needed to deal with a crisis for which one could not be prepared. 

Anxiety 

When a person loses a dream that is central to their being, they are forced to make major changes within themselves and within their environment.  To deal with having a disabled child, parents go through dramatic changes that affect their attitudes, priorities, values, and beliefs, as well as altering day-to-day routines.  Such changes require a great deal of energy.  Anxiety mobilizes the energy needed to make these changes. Further, it gives focus to that energy so that the changes can be actualized.  Anxiety is the inner source of the need to act. 

Anxiety is generally seen as hysterical, inappropriate, and unacceptable.  The culture’s message is clear.  As a rule, we advise anxious people to “calm down,” to take meditation, or to use alcohol as a “solution” for the “problem” of anxiety.  The un-solutions keep the parent from changing and often make things worse for all concerned.  Realities must be faced, stressful as they might be.  It does not take long for most parents to become aware that they, not some professional, are their child’s medical, education, and therapy managers, even though they may have minimal knowledge of these areas.  That alone should drive home the urgent need for energies to be mobilized and focused by the crucial feeling of anxiety. 

Fear 

As anxiety mobilizes people to deal with change, fear is a warning that alerts the person to the seriousness of the internal changes that are demanded.  One’s sense of balance and order are dramatically challenged when one confronted with an ongoing meaningful loss. The parents experience the terror of knowing that they will be required to change on a fundamental level, against their will, with full understanding that the process of internal change is very difficult. 

Significant losses [or a catastrophic loss, when the loss cannot be corrected, and you are left with something different in the place of what you’ve had e.g. a disabled child], produce a profound sense of abandonment and vulnerability.  We have a number of sayings to cope with this level of fear, e.g., “It is far better to have loved and lost, than to have never loved at all.”  Each person must find their own words to confront the sense of abandonment and vulnerability generated by a significant loss.  Most parents experience the fear of vulnerability about having more children after they have had a disabled child, or about “over protectionism,” the gut-wrenching fear of permitting their disabled child to do anything that feels risky.  Given the ways that this part of grieving is manifest, it should not be difficult to see that fear is the medium that encourages the struggle to reattach, to love again in the face of loss. 

Guilt 

Parents of disabled children manifest guilt through the normal course of grieving and are often criticized for doing so. Guilt is a feeling state that has become so identified with being neurotic that people feel guilty about feeling guilty.  Since sharing such feelings often evokes negative judgments, it can be difficult for a sophisticated parent to talk about guilt freely.  On the surface, guilt-ridden people may appear not only neurotic, but superstitious, ignorant and primitive.  They are often viewed as unpleasant, uncomfortable people to be with and therefore are dismissed or treated harshly by friends, family, and professionals. 

Generally, parents of disabled children express guilt in one of three ways. One way is by telling a story that explains how they are responsible for their child’s handicap.  Their story is often accurate and, overall, persuasive.  The current emphasis on the prevention of birth defects has brought many parents to feel that they caused their child’s impairment.  The issue is not the logic, but the feeling of guilt.  Another way that guilt is manifested is in the conviction that the child’s impairment is punishment for a past inappropriate thought, feeling, or action.  One of the more common “guilt thoughts” is regretting the pregnancy sometime during gestation.  When something goes wrong after that thought occurs, “it’s all my fault” becomes a natural outcome.  Lastly, guilt can be expressed through the parent’s belief that good things happen to good people, and bad things happen to bad people.  Because, they have a disabled child, they must be bad people and consequently feel shame and guilt.  How can such painful explanations of tragedy be useful to bereaved individuals? Simply by being the explanations.  Guilt “explains” the unexplainable.

Human beings begin to question the “why” of things from very early on in their lives.  What are the rules, which govern the way of things: cause and effect as well as right and wrong?  A most important “why” concerns how one’s “right” or “wrong” actions effect one’s life.  What difference does it make that a person is moral, ethical, legal, caring, ambitious?  How is that one does or does not influence the events of one’s life?  Some of us found early and easy answers to these questions and have not considered them since.  After a loss, such questions cannot be answered in ordinary fashion.  Rather, they must be addressed through the kind of grief-related struggles addressed here.  When people confront a loss, the beliefs they held regarding cause and effect, right and wrong, and their impact upon life are deeply shaken.  The order of things is totally upset when an innocent child suffers.  The parent experiences deep pain, pain that can be used to reorder the rightness of the world.  Guilt is the feeling state that facilitates this struggle to reorder.  Basically, the guilt-ridden person is saying that they are accepting responsibility for everything.  It feels better to do that than to believe that they have no influence on anything!  Guilt, in this sense, helps one to redefine the issue of cause and responsibility in the light of loss. 

Depression 

A common response to loss often is characterized by profound and painful sobbing.  Parents report that at times it feels as though the tears will never stop.   There is a rest, but then for no apparent reason, waves of despair and anguish wash over the parent once more.  Between the tears, one can sit alone, staring silently.  Those periods of silence can last well beyond the periods of tears.  The thoughts of depression take over, thoughts like: “What’s the use of trying, it’s all over,” or “Nothing I do matters, because nothing will change what has happened to my child!”  Depression is subtly rejected and judged as pathological by much of our culture.  When people display such feelings, they are often told to “cheer up”, given medication, or offered distractions.   Such responses are inappropriate, for depression is part of normal, necessary, and growthful grieving.  It attends to another aspect of a basic human struggle that loss stirs. 

As we mature, we develop and modify our definitions of the following words: competence, capability, value, and potency.  They are words of profound personal significance.  They are the criteria that people use to decide if they are OK or not.  What criteria does a person have to meet to feel like a competent parent, a capable worker, a valued friend, or a strong person?  Each person determines these standards privately, even secretly.  When parents are confronted with a disabled child, whatever definitions they held for competency, capability, value, and potency usually no longer apply.  How does a father or mother feel competent when he or she has a profoundly disabled son or daughter?  They cannot use the measures of peers, like having a child graduate from college, finding a job, getting married, becoming grandparents.  What is the worth of a father who cannot “fix” what is broken in his disabled son or daughter.  Out of this struggle of defining one’s worth come the frightening feelings of helplessness, hopelessness, and haplessness [and sometimes isolation].  Faced with loss, a parent feels unable to act effectively (helpless), unable to imagine that things will ever get better (hopelessness), and unable to believe that their lives are touched by good luck (hapless). 

Such feelings are terrifying for both parents and those around them.  For that reason, it is hard to see that depression is a normal and necessary part of the grieving process.  Depression is the medium that helps parents come to new definitions of what it takes to be a competent, capable, valuable, and strong people, even though their child has impairments that they cannot cure. 

Anger 

Anger, for many people, is the most disconcerting of the feeling states.  It too is a natural and necessary part of the grieving process.  Parents feel anger at the harm done to their child and the shattering of their dreams.  When one encounters a significant [catastrophic] loss, it is likely that one’s internal sense of justice is severely challenged.  To continue to trust in the world, one must have a sense of justice that confirms an orderliness and fairness to the way the world works. 

A parent can righteously demand to know why he or she has a disabled child: “Why me, why not you!”  Implicit in the question is the notion that here must be good reason that such a thing happens to one parent and not to another.  A parent’s concept of justice, like value and worth, is another unique product of that individual’s thinking and development.  When confronted with the traumatic loss of a dream, that internal sense of justice is violated.  Crying out in the face of injustice, the parent develops new ways to look at justice in the world.  “What, after all, is fair, if this can happen?”  Anger is the medium through which a parent redefines fairness and justice.  It integrates new beliefs within the deepest emotional levels of the grieving parent.

Unfortunately, anger is an emotion that is actively rejected by the culture at large and by people closest to the parent.  The angry parent experience’s rejection by others, confusion about feeling anger and acting out the feeling – the feeling of being out of control.  All of this makes it very difficult for this important feeling to run its course.

Anger also poses other dilemmas.  Unlike the other feeling states of grieving, anger is directed toward someone or some-thing.  Who (or what) is the object of parental anger?  This question deeply distresses most parents, because the honest answer is often so troubling that many people avoid asking themselves the question.  The unacceptable answer, of course, is that the disabled child is the object of anger.  After all, who has entered this parent’s life, disrupted it, caused immeasurable pain, and drained the parent’s time, energy, and money. 

Most parents were raised to believe that feeling and expressing negative feelings about one’s child is taboo.  “The child never asked to be handicapped, let alone to be born.  How can one be reasonably angry at this child?”  If the child is blameless, then it must be unreasonable to feel anger toward the child, even though one does!  The conflict between what parents feel and what they permit themselves to express can cause a return to denial.  Another outcome of this conflict is that the parent can displace the anger onto others.  Spouses, non-disabled siblings of the disabled child, and professionals are all possible targets of this displaced anger.

When considering the feeling states of grieving, especially the feeling state of anger, logic and reason are irrelevant.  Where is the logic behind cursing a rug that one has just tripped on?  What is the purpose of kicking a flat tire?  What good does it do to admonish anyone after they have already done the wrong thing?  Expressing simple anger clears the way to getting on with the task at hand.  Expressing anger opens the way to address the meaning of justice (though enacting angry behaviour sidetracks the parent from the task at hand).  While there is no logic, there is purpose and function to the expression of angry feelings.  As events occur that violate one’s sense of justice, the outrage must be expressed.  Those expressions help to redefine one’s concepts of fairness and injustice. 

The parent of a disabled child separates from dreams that were shattered by impairment through grieving.  Denial, anxiety, fear, depression, guilt, and anger all emerge.  If they are shared with other people, these feelings help parents grow and benefit from what might be the worst tragedy of their lives.  Grief must be shared deeply and fully until the underlying issues are revealed.  The reopening of these issues changes the parents’ worldview.  New perceptions of themselves and their world serve as a solid foundation for coping with the disability and for personal growth.  Yielding to the grieving process helps parents find the inner strength and external support needed to face profound loss; to mobilize and focus the energies needed to change their lives; to reattach to new dreams and loves in spite of feeling abandoned and vulnerable; to redefine their criteria for competence, capability, value, and potency; to reassess their sense of significance, responsibility, and impact upon the world around them; and to develop new beliefs about fairness and justice that makes the world a tolerable place to live, even though terrible losses can occur.   The culturally rejected feeling states of denial, anxiety, fear, depression, guilt, and anger may be used in surprisingly positive ways when the feelings are fully shared.

Perhaps you can now see why I think that experiencing and sharing the pain is the solution, not the problem.  Through my life I have experienced many losses.  For many years I dealt with these losses by stifling feelings, workaholism, toughing-it-out, and innumerable other ways that kept me from experiencing what had happened to me.  I became one of the “walking wounded” that I was committed to helping. Ironically, it was not until I had a child with impairments that I began to take advice that I had so freely given to other parents. I started to yield to the natural and necessary process of grieving.  Like everyone else, I discovered that only now am I growing with the impact of the loss. I will continue to grieve and to grow as my child and I develop and experience new losses and new strengths. 

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